"I am enough"— And now we’re at the real root of it. I am enough. I am enough. I am OK. I am worthy. I am worth it. I am sufficient. I am enough. It's not about the stuff I have accumulated. Things don't last. It's not about the things I do. I'm not getting graded or auditioning or interviewing for this role as a mother. "Am" is a simple conjugation of "to be." Maybe we should punctuate this sentence differently. I am--enough. All I have to do is be. Do be do be do…And that will be enough.
So what did I do after the snot-slinging fit? I hit my reset button. That's what I used to call it when the babies would cry so long I was sure they couldn't remember how to stop crying--we'd walk outside to "hit the reset button." I emailed my boss and said that I would be in an hour late. I went inside the house and I didn't turn anything on. No computer, no phone, no TV, no lights.
I opened the back door and listened to it rain. The dog came out of his crate and leaned against my leg while I scratched his head. Instead of a Diet Coke, I fixed myself a big glass of ice water. I sat down and counted how many different kinds of birds I could hear singing in the rain (five). Then I started my day.
Peace to you today. You have enough. You do enough. You ARE enough.