Sleep is something I'd dream about if I had a chance to dream...
I'm just bitching here so if you're not in the mood for me to be whiny and a
bit lot self pitying then close this page NOW. Otherwise, feel free to read on and please, please, please smile if your life is great today and remind yourself that it is so.
I've not slept a real, true night's sleep since 2007. The girls have been sick, both up all night, every night except for one and I still awoke just to listen to the monitors. The ear infections seem to have passed but now baby (20 months) seems to have croup. Last night I thought we'd pack up and head to the ER but then we stepped out in the cold and that helped. It's not a horrible case, it just sounds bad and she can't sleep, so by day break I don't bother to call the doc. We were back in the docs office on Thursday anyway b/c I didn't think the ears where clear. The 3 year old can't hear well right now (and I thought she was ignoring me at first!) and I was informed it would take 3 more weeks to clear up. I meant to complain about B's mild cough, too, but I was so adled in the brain that I forgot. If I had to talk to the doc right now she would think I'm insane b/c I can't hold a conversation. I don't even want to go back and proof this b/c then I won't post it and I won't feel better. Just getting it out feels better.
So this lack of sleep and constant clinging by little girls means my work is suffering. Invoices aren't getting sent so checks aren't coming in and my voice is strained from all of this and so it's taking longer to voice and I have to do that in bits and pieces and that's not working for me and and and and and.
My bitch session is over. Wonderful, terrific, fantastic hubby is wrestling B into a nap so M and I can play some Candy Land and she can get some one-on-one time with mommy for a change w/out little sister's constant "myyyy mooommmmyyyy."
If you read this far, and I think you're brave for doing so, then feel free to leave me a virtual hug, or even a virtual hole I can crawl into that contains some anejo tequila and a pretty glass to drink it from. Really, I bet just a pretty, shiny glass would be enough for me at this point.
This shall pass this shall pass this shall pass this shall pass. Oh, and then I can get back to my agenda for 2008. I think I meant to say this earlier, that all the sickness has made the new year totally wonky and I'm so off course. Sigh.