Today is the DAY!
Well thank you for making me feel welcomed everyone! today is a good day i woke up this morning woke my son up and saw him look up at me from his crib and he had this BIG smile on myself and i thought to myself wow today is gonna be a good day! Yesterday was such a tiring day for me . i got out of work late only because i had so much left over things to do before everyone comes back from vaca. Got home and my son walked to me and put his arms out for me to carry him. i thought to myself if i bend over someone is going to have to bend me back lol . But when it comes to him i take my chances. After chores, bathing the baby, and actually sitting down to talk to my fiance it was 11 o'clock. and in mid conversation i started to fall asleep. and i here my fiance saying " BABY! go to bed lol " so i took a long hot shower went to bed and fell asleep. I feel so bad that i neglect my fiance . i try my best to be super mom and then try to be SUPER SPOUSE. and two of those dont mix . and any women that tells you they could do both IS LYING! lol.
I havent sat down and had dinner with my fiance in over a year. But those are one of the things about having a baby. everyone said it wasnt going to be easy . but you know what its pretty easy to me . i know im a stronger person from this whole experience . I always thought to myself i will never make a good mom i dont have the time or the patience to take of myself and im going to take care of someone else. But when i got pregnant it was something completely different i started to take care of him even when he was in my belly . taking vitamins, listening to my dr.s about the right diet to help him grow. and when we found a heart mur mur when they took a ultrsound i was at the fetal cardiologist everyday. when he finally came i thought about nothing else but taking care of him . im pretty damn proud of myself ! =) i had a great support system anyway . My mama taught me well . and my dad is my inspiration because one day he told me "MAMA your going to make a wonderful mom" i dont know why that struck me so hard. probably because i know that my dad still sees me as his little girl and then all of a sudden i was becoming a mom. okay getting emotional over here gtg.