Who knew I loved my husband?
I know that everyone says when you give birth you love your child instantly which is true, but am I the only one who felt way more connected with my husband? I just felt like I was going to burst. MDH and I had a rough situation when E was born. (although some people have it way worse and God Bless you) I didn't get to hold him until he was 2 days old and we had to stay in a hotel for a week while he was in the NICU.
My husband became a different man overnight. Definately for the better, and he was already great! I mean just an instant Dad. I didn't even stay in the hospital for 24 hrs. and we have to leave to be with E in another hospital in a town 2 hours from us.
At one point I looked at my husband who at that time happened to be carrying 3 full totes, wheeling a still swollen & hormonal me around the hospital, and looked so tired from taking the late night feedings while I recovered at the hotel. I teared up and thought to myself, "what a great man I've married and what a wonderful Dad he'll be".
My favorite thing was one of the last nights at the hospital I was completely drained-literally. I had been pumping as much as I could pump for a week straight, with no sleep and hardly any food. I had been positive for as long as I could until this nurse asked us to come back all through the night and the morning to help take care of E since there would only be one nurse in NICU. (the NICU is only open for 2 hours at a time with an hour closed in between, we had been there since 6 AM and it was now 11 PM)
She had implied that I was being selfish if I didn't do that, so I went out to tell my hubby. (There's one thing you have to know about my husband, he usally avoids confrontations at all costs) He walked through the doors back to talk to the nurse. I caught a glimpse of her telling him the the same thing. I waited in the hall for him to come back out and instead I got the nurse! " I didn't know what you've been going through, you don't have to worry about coming back out, I'm sorry if I worried you" MDH came out as she went back in and said, "nobody treats my wife like she's not doing enough and a damn good job at that."
I think I fell in love with him all over again.