3 days before my birthday and I become a little pensive and reflective again...thinking what I have achieved and done to make my life a better one than the last birthday. Oh well, it becomes a habit, a cycle of starting anew and wishing the best for me.Anyway it's my birthday.
I consider my birthday a chance to start anew,just like New year for you.New habits,new dreams or time to refresh the old ways. But this time,there is something new in me...a new confidence that comes from knowing that I have surrendered. Yes, I have done it surrendering and letting the Lord works for my life. It's not easy at first because I am stubborn and "madiskarte" which I believed had helped me through my 36 years in this world well minus my childhood years where my parents took care of me.
I had this share of frustrated dreams, broken promises, untruthful deeds and unkept promises which somehow made me feel a unworthy of His love so I just keep on doing what I want on my pace...but then somewhere, somehow when nothing seems right anymore and nothing of my ways works anymore, I know something is wrong...I'm not doing His plans for me...and I faced Him despite my weakness and sins...I ask Him to change me and lead me to what He wants for me.
And He answered fast ....He gave me a new job in the field of broadcast still, well maybe it's where my talents lies really...after a short rest from this field He gave me a perfect job, partime because I am still waiting for my chance to have my own newspaper..or an own business which pays well and will make my dreams come true sooner...