Peformance evaluations.... helpful or demoralizing?
I've just finished up getting my performance valuations. I'm really upset about the whole thing. I was evaluated by 5 different people. 2 were great. The other 2 were ok but the last one I felt was personal. I've felt from day one that this person was trying to do me in because I make more money than she does and I have a degree. She has been with the company for 8 years and can't move up anytime soon. She knows I will move up in a year and will be above her. I felt she plain lied in the evaluation. I sat down with her today and went over it. She brought the copy in. I thought it look hoaky when we were discussing it. When I got home I looked at the one I was given and they were two seperate ones. Why would she do that?
The thing that irks me is I've only been with this company for a little over 4 months and I've probably had to learn at least 6 different sets of software. I've had to learn the quirks of working with 5 different managers who all want different ways of reconciling. It is also a highly technical job. I'm being told I keep going over the budgeted hours on tax returns. There is never anyone there when I need them because some are part timers so I have to figure it out by myself. The process sucks and causes more problems than it should. I just can't believe my eval was so bad. They said it wasn't my tax skills.... it is learning all the software which is really hard.
At the end of the evaluation I was asked if I wanted to formally respond? I declined as I know it won't make a difference. I think you have to take your evaluations like a man and take the hit. At the end my manager looked at me and asked if I was ok. I asked her if she was expecting me to cry and she said yes. At that point I told her that there are things to cry about like burying your infant and I have my priorities. This isn't going to make me cry. I will try harder and do my best. That is all I can do. I just hate these things. I don't feel motivated now to work for this company. My position has a high turn over and now I know why. These evaluations are demoralizing. There was no positive comments made and I did plenty of good things. My husband reminds me that this position is just a stepping stone and he is right. I just need to do one year and I'll have my CPA license. I've got to keep this in perspective.