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Almost 4 months ago my ex broke up with me. We were together 7 years 3 months and have a 2 year old daughter. He still lives in my house. He expects me to keep trying to get him back.. um hello? HE left ME!! He hasn't made any attempts to move out eventhough I've repeatedly asked. He left me for a MARRIED woman that has 3 kids of her own. Well he finally stopped talking to her and now they're talking AGAIN! I'm so angry. I've told him, if he thinks he can talk to her, he can get out. I'm serious about that. I do NOT want him talking to some married woman that he got PREGNANT! She lost the baby. I think that was a sign from above. I just hate coming home and not knowing how to act around the man I've loved so much for so long. He doesn't want to be together. He says he doesn't want anyone. Well, then he can move out and be alone. I don't really have ANYONE to talk to here in person. All of my friends and family are 3 hours away in another state. I'm just mentally exhausted. I can't financially support my household without his help. I don't want to continue living like this. It's emotional torture pretty much every moment of every day. I'm not sure what to do. I feel like I'm borderline depressed, if not depressed already. I'm always on the verge of tears. The dumbest things make me cry. I'm easily irritated. I am tired all the time. Well, I hope everyone had a good Christmas. I will gladly ring in the new year.